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10:13am August 21, 2014

Dom’s Agenda [8/21/2014]

Today’s Theme Songs: Dread in my Heart by Mother Mother [ will add more as day goes on ] I’ll Cover You [ Angel’s Funeral] from Rent. 

I missed work today. There is just TOO much to do the day before Grammy’s Funeral. I need to make sure everything is taken care of. 

- Call Mother to See how she’s feeling [ She’s sick.. and cranky. ] 

- Cry [ This is so fucking hard. Plus mom yelling at me doesnt help much either. ] 

- A little breakfast. [ Nevermind. I aint hungry anymore. ] 

- Call Pastor Litton about equipment to use at church. I have a video I want to show and music I’d like to play. 

- Prosthetic Appointment at 3:30 PM. 

- Grammy’s Wake is from 3PM-7PM . Will go right after  appointment. 

- Print ACEOs for Thank you Cards. [ Limited Edition. 50 prints. Thats all. Gonna send the file over to Fed Ex to get printed. ] 

- Grab more Card protectors. 

-Grab more Thank You cards. [ 30 donors. another pack of Cards? ] 

-Wash and Clean Car. [ Ask about shampooing the interior carpets ] 

-Clean House [ sweep/mop floors, make bed, clean bathroom, take trash out. ] 

- Print Obituaries for Funeral [ 100. 70 for the funeral. 30 to give to people who donated. ] 

-Go to Farmer’s Market [ Opens at 3:30 until 7:30 PM. I want to make  a Peach Berry Cobbler so pick up peaches, blackberries and raspberries. ] 

- Dinner with Ade [ dunno what yet. Maybe Tacos ] 

- Scream and Cry a little. [ MOTHERFUCK IM BURYING MY GRANDMOTHER TOMORROW. ] 

1:37pm August 20, 2014

The mower stalled, twice; kneeling, I found
A hedgehog jammed up against the blades,
Killed. It had been in the long grass.

I had seen it before, and even fed it, once.
Now I had mauled its unobtrusive world
Unmendably. Burial was no help:

Next morning I got up and it did not.
The first day after a death, the new absence
Is always the same; we should be careful

Of each other, we should be kind
While there is still time.

— Philip Larkin, The Mower (via fishingboatproceeds)
4:00pm August 19, 2014

liquidmeth:

That awkward sexual tension between you and someone you’ve dated like hi how are you i’ve seen you naked and i’ve heard you moan my name you look great

10:00am August 18, 2014

iguanabones:

the afterlife isnt all its hyped up to be

11:14pm August 17, 2014

“I crave touch, yet I flinch every time someone is close enough.”

— I have become rather fearful I suppose.  (via dollpoetry)
11:09pm August 17, 2014

foxnewsofficial:

i get so affectionate when i’m sleepy it’s disgusting

10:00am August 17, 2014

bblackgoldd:

I am so glad I pressed play

7:53am August 13, 2014

On Tuesday, August 12th, my Grandmother passed away. 

Stella Grace Woods was finally freed from her ongoing battle with a stomach anyuerism, heart disease and pulmonary disease.

While her heart was sick physically, not once did it make her unkind. She was always known for her kindness, generosity and putting her loved ones first. 

But, she also wasnt afraid to speak her mind, kick ass and take names. 


I only hope that, as I stumble through my early adulthood, I inherit her strength. 

Grammy never really had much to begin with, but was always quick to give it away to others. And now with her gone and funeral costs looming over the family, I’m hoping to do my part. 

I’ve opened up for art commissions as well as a gofundme to help my grammy get the funeral she wanted.  She had a few requests — A white casket, lots of roses and white flowers and Clothes fitting to see the Lord in. And I want to help any way I can. 

If you can spare anything to help with the cause, I would appreciate it. But, even if you cant, reblog this. Spread the word. Let people know what I’m trying to do . It would help me out so much. 

Thank you for all who have given me good juju and kind words . its is hard without her here, but I know that I will see her again. 

Art Commissionshttp://alachatte.tumblr.com/post/94584171133

Grammy’s Funeral Relief: http://www.gofundme.com/cy7rz8

5:48am August 12, 2014

tix-n-roo:

Mental Health No Jutsu 8: Hunkering Down for the Rain. 

[ Tix ] It has been a rough summer for me.

I am currently dealing with two heaping scoopfuls of grief . One I have been preparing for — a family member that has grown terminally ill… 

And another, who passed away suddenly in an accident just a couple of weeks ago. 

Although they are both reaching the same destination, they both feel different. The Kubler-Ross Stages of grief be damned, I fluctuate between depression and anger, confusion and betrayal. 

All the while trying to keep a straight face and go through my busy schedule of life. 

But through all the fake smiles, the “i’m okay”s and the pained laughter I realized that I was not following the most important rule of this [and many] emotions. 

Grief is what you feel. Mourning is what you do and how you act from it. *

I didnt allow myself to do either.. and I suffered hard from it. I didnt talk about it to anyone and I would feel sick. I would try and keep up with my friends when they wanted to go out and I felt more lethargic than ever.  I would try and follow my routine and I would wonder why I was losing my temper a lot faster than I normally do. 

My grief was showing in other unhealthy ways. 

So, with all that said ,  allow yourself to grieve and mourn. Allow yourself to cry to sad songs, make vent art, take naps and just talk. 

You’ll find that over time you will start to feel like your old self again. The rain will past and leave blossoms of joy behind. 

However, if you find yourself growing unhealthy habits after a long period of time [ Emotional Eating, undereating, Alchoholism, Actions of Self Harm ] then please seek the help you need and deserve. Mourning sometimes have us do crazy things and go through bad cycles. Dont allow yourself to drown in your grief.

* While this speaks about the loss I’m going through we havent forgotten the different kind of loss you can experience. Break-Ups, Losing a Job, Losing a friend, even losing something materialistic can bring up feelings of grief. I hope this MHNJ helps as well. 

5:24am August 12, 2014
  • Love: I want you to be happy
  • Infatuation: I want you to be happy with me and me only
  • Love: I care about your feelings more than mine
  • Infatuation: I care about you but I always think about me first
  • Love: Give me some time, I'll forgive you
  • Infatuation: I HATE YOU ! NEVER TALK TO ME EVER AGAIN !
  • Love: I love you because of the way your eyes crinkle when you laugh
  • Infatuation: She/he has a nice body
  • Love: I'll try to understand your point of view.
  • Infatuation: You're so unfair !
  • Love: I still get butterflies in my stomach when I see your face
  • Infatuation: I'm completely over you and it only took me a couple of months
  • Love: It's been 3 months, I care about you so much.
  • Infatuation: I know it's only been 2 weeks, but I'm in love with you
5:22am August 12, 2014

otterlogic:

I’m by no means qualified to speak for Carlos, but I hope this cheers you up a bit!

1:02pm August 10, 2014

Got a little motto
Always sees me through
When you’re good to Mama
Mama’s good to you.

10:01am August 7, 2014

tix-n-roo:

Mental Health No Jutsu 8: Hunkering Down for the Rain. 

[ Tix ] It has been a rough summer for me.

I am currently dealing with two heaping scoopfuls of grief . One I have been preparing for — a family member that has grown terminally ill… 

And another, who passed away suddenly in an accident just a couple of weeks ago. 

Although they are both reaching the same destination, they both feel different. The Kubler-Ross Stages of grief be damned, I fluctuate between depression and anger, confusion and betrayal. 

All the while trying to keep a straight face and go through my busy schedule of life. 

But through all the fake smiles, the “i’m okay”s and the pained laughter I realized that I was not following the most important rule of this [and many] emotions. 

Grief is what you feel. Mourning is what you do and how you act from it. *

I didnt allow myself to do either.. and I suffered hard from it. I didnt talk about it to anyone and I would feel sick. I would try and keep up with my friends when they wanted to go out and I felt more lethargic than ever.  I would try and follow my routine and I would wonder why I was losing my temper a lot faster than I normally do. 

My grief was showing in other unhealthy ways. 

So, with all that said , I say this to you … allow yourself to grieve and mourn. Allow yourself to cry to sad songs, make vent art, take naps and just talk. 

You’ll find that over time you will start to feel like your old self again. The rain will past and leave blossoms of joy behind. 

However, if you find yourself growing unhealthy habits after a long period of time [ Emotional Eating, undereating, Alchoholism, Actions of Self Harm ] then please seek the help you need and deserve. Mourning sometimes have us do crazy things and go through bad cycles. Dont allow yourself to drown in your grief.

* While this speaks about the loss I’m going through we havent forgotten the different kind of loss you can experience. Break-Ups, Losing a Job, Losing a friend, even losing something materialistic can bring up feelings of grief. I hope this MHNJ helps as well. 

9:01am August 5, 2014

Current Mood: Fluctuating between “i’ll fucking kill you if you say the wrong to me.” and “I’m fine. Everything’s fine.”